My heart ain’t willin’ to revisit the scene of the pain.
Don’t get me wrong – I will do what I gotta do…..
-Pain Revisited, Shara Nelson, What Silence Knows
When is my life ever easy? Just because this is only one day a year for observance, I can’t just omit it the other 364 days of the year. This is something I live with and think about every year. Every day. Every second.
This is something I must live with each and every day. I would love to say that this is easy, that it’s a piece of cake, that living every day with afflications should be easy. It’s gotten better, for sure.
But it ain’t over yet.
I keep hearing from people each who can minimize it as something which is little more than just a passing thought. It isn’t. I’ve been fortunate enough to build the strongest relationship ever in my life, and develop families both with my famous surname and those which I encounter along the way.
Physicians of mine rock the world, second to none, but I’m not done with the fight. I’ve been able to help myself, of course, but my shift has changed. It’s all about me assisting others. It’s all about making a stand and being in front of of and behind those who live with the fear, the pain and the loss.
To be sure, there are challenges in my court. I’m stepping forward to say that it’s important to look towards the past, but it’s absolutely crucial to look towards the future.
And it don’t stop. I know I can’t. Couldn’t stop last year, can’t stop this year. Gotta keep workin’, gotta keep livin’.
(The world keeps expanding, and I’m struggling to keep up with the masses. Check for trackbacks in the refrain.)
[Addendum: others not trackbackable: Keith, Steph, Christopher]